Natty - Hear Me Out lyrics

[Verse 1: Natty] I really need to write a bar, cause when i don't write It drives me insane, it makes me so depressive So i write with this rage, never learnt my lesson So i hide all this pain use my brain as a weapon Threw my kindness away cause the pain is my obsession So I'm signing this page to release my aggression What I'm trying to say is music free's all my tension So I'm flying away, away from this depression But thats just the minor part It's driving me insane, I really need to write a bar Now i've been told that my songs have inspired hearts & when i wrote real talk i really wasn't trying hard But now I'm fighting writers block Tryna light my mind again, but really all the lights are off Always kept on going, never have i tried to stop This is just a price to pay, but when will the price be dropped Now i've been procrastinating, Some may say I'm idle They can say that Nat's amazing, But really i just cry wolf Never have i rapped a statement, Cause i don't preach the bible But now my f**ing back is aching, & musics got me stifled People say I'm laid back & patient, But underneath this complexion I'm blowing up like guy fawkes You wanna say my tracks are basic, well I'm guessing that is my fault Cause the fact of the matter is i didn't give 'em my all I've had enough of carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders Every time i try to shift the weight, the boulder stays Right there, in-between my shoulder blades Everyday it pushes down harder on my spinal cord I'm turning Dragon-Ball Z, I'm just waiting for my final form Cause everyday I'm changing, into this new me & right now I'm facing the fact that people look at me rudely I feel like everybody's always tryna judge me They're either tryna start fights, or they're tryna mug me But all i can say is, i've grown a lot since my school days Faced up to the bullies that kept leaving me with a bruised face & to the teachers that kept sending me to the hospital Cause they thought i was going crazy But what was wrong with me wasn't psychological I've got a statement, which i've had since i was a baby But to them it was impossible to control me Thats when i started puffing cannabis & now it's three years on & I'm feeling kinda lonely But I'm overcoming these obstacles, cause truthfully I'm loving all these challenges They're making me wiser & I'm only eighteen so I'm soon to become a grown man Living of my parents but soon i'll have to take life into my own hands & for those of you who don't know I'm no longer feeling so cold I'm no longer alone or on my jack jones Overcome a lot of sh**, so over the years i relies that i have grown Got rid of these thoughts of putting the mic down, before i had even picked the mic up So now I'm in the booth again spilling all these feelings over these beats Telling you all about how my life s**s Now i sent a radio station one of my CD's Waiting to hear back, but i fear that, i've messed up Cause every single song i write, doesn't seem to be my best stuff So you never thought you'd see me here, writing out these strong words You thought i won't defeat my fears, but now I'm moving onwards & every time defeat is near, you'll always see me conquer So watch me as i leave my fears & everyday you'll see me growing stronger Now I'm running out off air, locked inside this box & i feel like i can't breathe (Ha) So listen to the rhythm of my heartbeat Everyday i write about how I'm gonna change But then i think that i can't change Cause one of the things that has made me who i am today is my f**ing heartache That is why i always rap about my dark days But now I'm packing up my bags, looking depression in the eyes & saying "I can't stay, i think it's time i moved on." Yeah, i think it's time i moved on & to those who said i wasn't good enough (Hmph) You just got proved wrong