Natalie Marie Howell - Song book part 1 lyrics

Song book summery this book will only include the songs I have written so fare and the story behind each song. Some of my songs may be simualre or the same but that is most likey because I went through the same thing more than once. I hope that for some of you who reads this book would realize the pain I kept inside and know that it dosent feel good to make someone else feel unwanted or like they dont belong in this world. If you read this book and come across a song about you READ IT VERY CARFULLY AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTILL YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I BEEN TRYING TO SAY ALL ALONG BUT COULDNT BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS SEEMED TO CUT ME OFF AND NOT GIVE A CRAP. Note: this song book will have a few songs that might or will make someone worried and call the plioce or goverment or who ever they want to call because you think im still on that road when im not. Aside from all this I hope you enjoy the book and the songs that are about to be written in this book. Now befor I get started ALL MY SONGS COMES FROM DAY DREAMING WHATS BEEN ON MY MIND HOW I FELT INSIDE AND THINGS I WANTED TO SAY AND DO BUT COULDNT BECAUSE OF THE LAW OR OUT OF RESPECT FOR PEOPLE WHO DROVE ME COMPLETEY INSAIN AND IM TALKING TO THE POINT WHERE LIFE JUST DIDINT MATTER TO ME. each song will be its own chapter so some chapters will be longer or shorter than the outhers thats fine. Think I coverd the most important thing for now so lets get started shall we. Chapter 1 Jesus take my life from me This song called Jesus take my life from me because where I was living people never really wanted to know how I was doing. They just rather me tell them everything is ok just because im alive and im breathing and there peopel who are in worse situations than what I am in right now. Heres the thing I care about people I care about what they say how they feel and whats on thier mind. When I hear that childern cant eat every day or they have to go into work labor because of the envimernt they live in it tears me apart than I see people out on the street and I cant help but feel like I gatta help them some how even if it means I gotta build a house for them myselves because no one should be out on the street and no one should have to worry about weather or not they can feed thire familys that day or not its not just sad its disapointing and heart breaking. So when you dont want to hear about what im feeling than the only thing im doing is telling you what you want to hear which means all I been doin was pretending im ok when im not. I also wrote this song because it was my way of talking to Jesus during the day when everyone around me was nagging me or making a lot of noise around me. Jesus take my life from me Jesus take my life from me take control of my life for me because I just can't go anouther day trying to pretnd im ok when I dont know what to say or do a lot of people dont want to hear me tell them im not ok so when they ask me if im ok or not the only thing I can manage to say is im fine nouthing real but you know excatly what im feeling and I dont have to pretend everythings ok when im with you so please Jesus take my life from me Jesus take my life from me case I can't take charge of this life any more Jesus how do you see my life what is it you see in me that has value in your eyes when im just nouthing but a tangled up mess always surround by the darkness of this world have I loved anyone just as you lovd me and people like me many times my mind wondred off it seems so real but unless my mind wonders off on you I dont want my mind to wonder off at all Jesus take my life from me Jesus take my life from me case I can't live this life myself anymore please Jesus take my life from me THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18 CHAPTER 2 IF YOU DENY ME IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS ILL DENY YOU IN FRONT OF MY FATHER ok so one day I was reading my bible with a lot on my mind and my feelings was all over the place. Than I came across where Jesus was talking about knowing who he was what hes done for them. We have a choice we can pretend Jesus dosent exist or we could let the whole know that we belive in Jesus our savior. Than all of a sudden I had a feeling inside that I had to start writeing about what I just read and thats how I came to writeing this song. If You Deny Me In Front Of your Friends I Will Deny You In Front Of My Father many peopel say they love Jesus but how manny will go to worlds end just to show how much they love Jesus will you deny him in front friends I know I won't you can ask who ill live for and who I gave my life to and ill tell you I gave everything to Jesus who saved my life and died for me and I dont care who knows about it because when you read what Jesus said he said " if you deny in front of your friends I will deny you in front of my Father if you deny me in front of your friends I will deny you in front of my Father now I dont know about you but that stood out to me because if you care so much what people think your not really getting the above all im working on not worrying what people say or think yea it will take time but I will tell u this I know im not alone I have a friend, Savior, and a king waiting to bring me home his name is Jesus if you deny me infront of your friends ill deny you infront of my Father so what will you do will you deny Jesus in front of your friends or will you tell the world what he has done for you in your life right now im working on a book and ill be sure to tell about him in every chapter I can case he never left my side so think about it think about what he said when he said if you deny me infront of your friends I will deny you in front of my Father THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 17 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18.