Natalie Marie Howell - Ripped apart lyrics

Riped apart I can feel my body giving up inside every day I used to be fillied with hope and energy but now with all the pain I been houlding in I just seem to come crashing down and even though everything appears to be ok and nouthing is falling I can hear the inside of me screaming enough is enough its time we break out of all this pain no more blameing yourself for every thing thats gone wrong even when the world dose when it seems like no matter what you do where you go or who your with nouthing seems to go right you begain to feel like you have no purpose in life and with that throught in mind everything comes floating around from every memory of pain to every life qustion that follows behind whey me sometimes you feel like life just isint worth the road your on right now but than you wonder whey you even came into this world all you herd 18 yeears of your life is nouthing but lies getting dragged into every battale that comes your way finnaly you get ripped apart ripped apart with your world crashing down you know I still cant belive the fact that you can aford two art cla**es 1 asl cla** 1 pe, basket ball whrestling, track, rotc,band,dance but you cant afford chior at all your so caught up happens to make it look like this is a good school but really it needs to be shut down now dont think I just have probblems at my school I have problems where I live speaking of which can you please tell me whey you hate kids so much and whey you accepted a job that involves being around kids can you explain that to me you know I put up with a lot but when you cant tell me what your problem is with me face to face weather it be about who im talking to or some ones watching me or what ever the case may be than haveing to hould everything inside case I cant say or do what I want to do makes my stress go up and now im just ripped apart ripped apart ripped apart you know its one thing to tell me I can trust you but its anouther to tell me I can ask you anything and than find out that no one knows whats going on and whoes in charge of what and mrs esconinia you might want to take a look at everyones scheduale and how its set up befor you dare come on the innercom and tell us all that just because we have block scheduale its not a reason to be late to any cla**es whatsso ever if you really belive that its not a reason to be late I suggjust you stay out of my sight now unless you really want to see stress/ anger flared up and come flying out I dare you to get in my way sometime soon and youll see excatly how ripped apart I am at this moment ripped apart ripped apart it wouldnt matter to you if we where on one side of the school and had to go stright to the outher side with in 5 miniunts you want to explain that to me you know what just bring the goverment & state to me so they can see whats going on around here and see just how ripped apart I am clearly pissed right now but mainly im just ripped apart ripped apart ripped apart THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18