Natalie Marie Howell - As of now i will never use my voice again lyrics

As of now I will never use my voice again you know I had so many people tell me or ask me how im doing whats on my mind and what I feel inside they all have asked me about relationships and whey I dont have one I tried to tell you vocicley but you cut me off I wrote it out 100 differnt times in 100 differnt ways and yet you still dont seem to know me instead you rather just tell my story for me though you havent been with me from the very begining mabe its something I said mabe its something ive done but no matter what it is or how many times I try to tell you my life story you just cut me off every time your worried about me you talk about it behind my back thinking I wont find out and when I do you ask me whey im pissed I mabe 18 years old and not have a job just yet and not pay any bills at the moment but that dosent mean I dont have a reason to stressed out as much as I am I try so hard to pretend im ok when im not every day I say im ok but really I just dont know what to say but I been thinking if all your gonna do is cut me off then all I have to say is as of now I will never use my . voice again as if now I will never use my voice again because im just wasting my breath by trying to tell my life story and you just dont care about it until of course im pissed and you wanna know whey once I tell you I hear you have no reason to be mad at me cas I havent done anything to you serisly your gonna say that to me when I just told you what I was pissed about are you that stupid now I know people worry about me I know they care about me and I aprecate that but if you have any problems that some how involves me in anyway whats so ever and instead of comeing to me you just call the plioce I will have a problem when you tell me to watch what I say whey do you always think im quite about almost everthing and try so hard to be alone its because if I cant say what I want to say your basicly telling me I cant use my voice now with that said as of now I will never use my voice again as of now I will never use my voice again I dont care who it is or what the situatation is my voice clearly dosent matter at all so as of now I will never use my voice again as of now I will never use my voice again till you can give me a hell of a reason whey I should still use my voice till you can stop cutting me off all the time and just listin to me than I will use my voice again but until that day comes all I can say is as of now I will never use my voice again I will never use my voice again dosent matter what the case is just had enough of this as of now I will never use my voice again THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18 TYPED BY NATALIE MARIE HOWELL AGE 18