Nalyd - Song For Chelsea lyrics

I don't what to do I don't know what to think As I look at my reflection and and I look down at the sink I write you letters everyday but I just waste my ink Cause you said you'd never leave me but you left me in a blink I couldn't buy you diamonds or wrap you up in mink But I could give you everything I have and I mean everything When I needed comforting you would hold me You would sing Til I drifted off to sleep and all the terror it would bring I couldn't save you from yourself even though I had tried And I still haven't cried since they told me that you died They said you died of reasons that your mother still denies And doesn't believe you could have led yourself to your own demise All the pictures of you I'm noticing changes in the eyes Like they point me to the clues that help me figure out the lies I could shed a million tears I could shed a million more But I wouldn't change what you did or the reason it was for So I sit with my thoughts and deal with the lumination I'm waiting for a sign but I'm starting to grow impatient I can not leave you in the past cause I'm fervently hoping You came back to life when your ashes were eaten by the ocean Most em I had to keep a line or two for me If you were only here to see what you still do to me