N3 - To Dad lyrics

Today I turned 15 and dad you never called Something seems a miss to me This sh** ain't such a mystery the writing's on the wall f** giving a reason, you're having trouble breathing You struggle through the seasons You taught me f**ing everything and now you're f**ing leaving Man I can't believe it It was harder to break that it was for us to hear You see the tears in my eyes I'm like daddy pull me near You're like "Jinz it's alright" But I'm struck by the fear You told me "Don't worry son imma make it to your 16th I'm taking all the medicine the doctors have to give me I wish we had more time please will you forgive me" You told me hold tight son come and live with me So I preyed for the best Shifted from the east all the way to the west There's a plague in your chest Dad I have to look after you I'll see you through the pain until the day that your departure's due Hook Laura K Waters Winds of change, chill of the rain Tomorrow the storm is at its end Winds of change, chill of the rain I'll walk through its tears once again I moved in to your house, we'd just sit on the couch Blaze away the weed, gazing at the wonder years daily on repeat That sh** was so comfortable the fatalist disease, didn't even exist Them moments were bliss, a total abyss, it's like we opened a glitch But it's all coming crashing you're looking f**ing haggard now You've aged ten years and it's only been 8 months Staring at your face like look what the pain's done I feel every breath that you take with your strained lungs I'm sweeping up your hair off the floor as it's falling out The doctor says the chemotherapy is gonna sort you out But all I see is regression I'm falling deeper and deeper in to a state of depression I go from dealer to dealer I must deprave the aggression Weed pills c**aine, anything to stay sane Maybe it delays pain, maybe if I take enough we could go the same way f** that stay strong weakness is the worst trait Think of what he did for you he made it to your birthday Dying slow to live for you, I'm hurting in the worst way Hook Sods law hard night I struggled with d** Woke up half cut cause nothings enough 9 missed calls, 4 messages, 1 text Call back sh** man I know what's to come next Dee answers the phone but she ain't even said it All I hear is the agony she's f**ing hysteric Come to the hospital as quick as you can She paused for a second said "I'll get you a cab" She's waiting at the double doors, I'm running through the f**ing ward My heart just hit the f**ing floor, I've never felt so f**ing raw And just at that moment when I get to his bed The doctor stops me puts his hand on my chest Tells me due to the d** he might be kind of a mess I shoved him out the way clutched my dad by the hand Looked him dead in the eye and said "Do you know who I am?!" He didn't recognize his own son His hearts still beating but I know that his soul's gone He died a minute later to the sound of the dead line I kissed him on the head and said.. "I'll see you in the next life" Hook x2