N. Talekt - So Gone lyrics

[Listen] Http://soundclick.com/share.cfm?id=11181766 [Hook] You've been gone for so long it's time to let go You disappeared in the shadows, just trying to save your soul You left me all alone and now you're too far gone So gone... [Verse 1] I woke up last night, in a cold sweat Having visions of events I didn't know yet Visions of things that I couldn't see, prayin that it couldn't be Tried layin it away but I couldn't sleep Took a reach for my phone to send a text Then made a call with no success, just a dial tone So my doubts grow, his life flashed before my eyes Every milestone ... from his first breaths First steps, first bout wit depression, first percocet First pregnancy scare, but they aborted that Lost in my thoughts, a loud knock brought it back Officers on my steps, sorry with regrets We found this cross around his neck at the bottom of the James I said no, check my DNA, it's probably a mistake But when the test came positive I lost it in a rage And the pain only grew knowin dreams come true [Hook] [Verse 2] 8:30, daddy comes home by himself With a look in his eyes, that words can't express An embrace, but even that can't ease the stress He just lost his own flesh, and I lost my best Friend, so I'm faced, with thoughts I can't share For a loss I can't bear, at a cost I can't pay I cast a blank stare, with words I can't say It's weight I can't carry, a burden I can't take! At his wake, daddy said a man's only able... To play the cards in his hand Well I say it's more about the players, why'd he sit at that table The stakes were way too high, he never had a chance Pictures on the wall and it's hard to even glance I'm tempted to rip 'em off, blame him for circumstance Tomorrow I graduate, he said he'd been in the stands ... Guess that's how go the best laid plans [Hook] [Verse 3] This morning my wife read in the obituaries That they buried my old friend in a cemetary Concern in her eyes, I told her worry He was lost a long time ago, this a formality He was at war in the streets, its gon be casualties And he did d** and women the same, casually I brought the calvary, put him through an intervention ... but all that did was extend the distance Between me and him and, between his woman And a different misses, between his freedom and a bid in prison Between reality .. and his mental visions ... And his bad habitats was a catalyst, additional inches Honestly I miss him, not gonna lie But I knew everyday he lived was borrowed time So sorry, but you won't see sorrow in my eyes Cause he's been gone for a long time, and I let go [Hook]