N. Bockholt - S. Blair lyrics

[VERSE ONE- THE TOP CIVILIAN] I've not been the same person since you've been gone Haven't had the security of your couch to lean on I was the great pretender trying to be strong Pretending everything's alright, when inside it's all wrong I don't want to sing the same songs that we sang together Now there's no baritone to compliment my tenor Whenever NASCAR was on we'd hit the Jerome Baker bong And jam to Pink Floyd - damn, I miss you Shawn You used to wrench on the S-10 looking all covered in tar We entered a burnout contest in my sh**ty foreign car I revved up the engine and the crowd started to scream And we sped down the street at barely even 15 It seems like a dream, I remember taggin' on your table Kickin' it as the days go by, we'd get high. But now your halo Keeps me stable. Before you left I took life for granted Now I wanna make you proud of the life I live; my hold you handed [VERSE TWO- MC BREW] Cornbeef would never represent you poorly And that's for sure, SMB That's the way we keep it Accomplishments: you would seek them and then you'd reach them Never would expect to be mourning you this evening But this is in remembrance of good times and bad I'm aghast. Remember when we would kick it and shoot the breeze in P.E. cla**? From good homeboys to neighbors Through all attitudes that wavered To see that smirk up on your face is like a place away from danger Now that you're gone, it feels wrong- changed up the whole flavor Known you for over decade, we never had a chance to live throughout our best days I've cried until I'm worn out, ‘cuz I know a part of me is torn out And can't be replaced. It's all said and done I know the light that was in your life shall reflect through your son You were an artist and also a great cook Feeling hardship now, but I gotta calm down At the sky glance up and take a look. I feel God didn't want you Unjustly stolen from us. It disgusts me I'm gloating over it And it's tough...this song got me to open up Hope this song is worthy Hope you have mercy if you thought this wasn't dope enough Rest in peace homie [VERSE THREE- THE TOP CIVILIAN] You were the first one I knew with a homemade tattoo We witnessed two UFOs: our eyes proof it was true Sometimes I get twisted, can't lift, emotions pressing Find it depressing to be on antidepressants But I can't let it get to me. From Sweet Fanny's to Perkins Your hair changed to a mohawk, together we were workin' Certainly never got the proper goodbye So me and all your homies together we cried You overflowed the Church. Bless your birth for what it's worth I was too hurt to see you lowered in the dirt My tear water burns and yearns for life with you Until I end and see you again, Essence...I'll miss you For all we've been through, blow a kiss to God 'Cause your my only refuge when the nights get long…you're gone…