Chorus: She abandoned me She don't live here anymore Now the pain is gone I'm moving on I'm so glad to see She don't live here anymore And all I have is love To keep me strong The smell of coke and the, feel of rope She reminded me of what could of been She used to ease the rage by, taking a blade And pushing til' the blood soaked her skin And any means to, stop the dreams Memories playing over in her mind There was no escape, she was reliving rape And lost and hurt and all kinds... Growing as a young girl, in a home of much abuse Growing as a young child, where pain replaced the truth Growing as a young girl, where love was known as hurt Growing as a young child, she was made to feel she had no worth Repeat Chorus Cancer ate the hair from mama's head, 4 infants dead Never could she see past the misery All alone in the broken home Grief overwhelming their history And means to, stop the dreams They hurt so loud They couldn't hear her cries No escape filled with so much hate She screamed to god almost every night Growing as a young girl, in a home of much abuse Growing as a young child, where pain replaced the truth Growing as a young girl, where love was known as hurt Growing as a young child, she was made to feel she had no worth Repeat Chours Chink Santana's Verse: Mama forgive us for lying Just trying to make it through the struggle Forgive us for dying We never meant to cause trouble And I know it was hard When every time you'd give your heart It gets battered and scared Now you mad at the lord Daddy show us the way I know it gotta be another Convinces for something Replace the tricking and cussing With some kissing and hugging Erase the visions when you sa**o Are you hitting his mother How the f**k could you love her And its all that you taught us I had to break a n***a, face a n***a If you f**k with my daughter Heaven and hell I swim and balling an ocean to water I wouldn't rest 'till I called him But then, I looked in the mirror And his face got clear enough How could we love him when we causing him pain Shorty remind me of my momma Saying daddy you've changed Don't want my daughters thinking Crazy with range n***as was cool cause the way they was raised So I'm turning the page And I'm sorry for the pain my black queen We had the truth rearranged my black queen And you so precious girl The lord will guide you Once you recognize the diamond inside you Shorty you can move on Repeat Chorus