Mr. Porter - I've Been Up, I've Been Down lyrics

[Verse 1] Somebody very dear to me just attempted to k** herself And showed me we don't fear d**h, we fear fear itself Ever since 98 in hip hop my presence been felt Couple dollars, couple models, couple of b**h n***as under my belt Thorough n***a, I'mma hold you to it If we hand shake my plan B is to complete plan A Grindin been my strategy like this is my anatomy I should get a tat on me that say why, why, why Would you let some dollar dictate your army I brush my shoulders up, polish off Haters if you play me I'll spray your potato layed up with fakers I put them in the news in a major paper My roller coaster of a career, hope it's been real for you Because it's been weird for me, I feel like [Hook] They can take away the cars, they can take away the cash But I bet you they can't take the realness that's in me I've been up, I've been down, I don't give a f**, yeah [Verse 2] I just want mama to be happy Is that too mothaf**ing much to ask? Damn it I'm about to cry in this b**h, can't get a jungle I hate liars but I f** with a lioness b**h If you don't straighten your a** out right now I will find you and iron you b**h Grindin been my strategy like this is my anatomy I should get a tat on me that say why, why, why Would you let losses make you act like a f*ggot? I'm a fly and you act like a maggot Money comes money goes, I used to wear funny clothes Hammer pants, my mama used to wipe my runny nose My real family all I care about is her, I'm feelin' like [Hook] [Verse 3] Then I watch my daddy hit my mama, listen to my mama Tryna calm us, y'all don't understand the problem that we have Who gives a sh** about dollars when you gotta go visit your father in rehab You said Rick Ryan Marcus as long as I'm getting high your mama will be sad And only I can fix this so I'mma turn this all around I promise As we sat He said i'm down in life right now you know I'mma be back And when he got back home it's like it was heaven sent Cause I was only 11 at the time and he's been clean and sober ever since He gave me this advice, you at a huge advantage Long as you know what's rules in life and a view for the planet Rather you the man, you're the mechanic people treat money like oxygen When they got it they take it for granted but then lose it and panic So spoken G, I look at him like Superman And y'all know n***as ain't even close to me so if he can fall, so can we [Hook]