I am a container of stories about you And I bring you up repeatedly, uninvited to Do the people around me want to keep hearing about my dead wife? Or does the room go silent when I mention you? Shining alive, I live with your absence And it's been two months since you died I'll speak to your absence and carry our stories around my whole life But when I'm in public, I don't know what's that look in their eyes I now wield the power to transform a grocery store aisle into a canyon of pity and confusion And mutual aching to leave Mmm Mmm The loss in my life is a chasm I take into town And I don't wanna close it Look at me d**h is real