With childlike eyes A maturity in reverse All memories fade from view And the mind remembers Only pain and sadness Reverting back to childhood A smile I once know Diminished into the darkness Of my mind In these walls, I live The abuser placing obstacles A force of nature Only seeing what you want to see And erasing the rest of your life Everyday we live with these secrets Pushed deep inside of us Waiting for release Or to find a way out As I reach for your hand You are not there The beholder of consequence In these walls, I live The abuser placing obstacles Dreams destroyed before me Of brutality, a mind control We can't see Beyond our own emotions An insecurity I can't justify in my mind