Montana Morris - Late Christmas lyrics

[Intro] I want love Show me love [Verse 1] But trust is a thing that very few n***as got Say you can't buy it but God dammit it can be bought Eight years when Maw Maw pa**ed but I never brought Tears to the table Q and Dad wasn't having it Nas playing in the background repping for his city Too young to understand still s**ing on a titty Seemed like a lot when you trying to play catch up Don't mess up, leather on my a**, I can't stop f**ing up He only knew one way of showing me love Years later I'm trying to get that f**ing feeling back Never had it, now I'm catching feelings bad What's Angelina n***a? You ain't sh** when you ain't got no f**ing Brad So why my old b**hes don't show me love still? Real n***a just want to know how real love feel And I will k** for that first cla** airport pa** Which doesn't that seem far when you alone laying low on the f**ing barge Thinking about every eight and up that I ever seen n***a When ambition ate me up cus I want that dream n***a Seeing all these other youngins cum on all these fertile roses Made me buy that mask, breach that red wall Rob that b**h, and never call Well I been trying to talk about some realer lyrics Trying to talk to some realer women But she ain't talking bout my dick I ain't trying to hear it I ain't down to hear it? No But what am I fearing? What am I fearing? I need to know Loves not a word, love is a feeling I'm afraid to show Cus pain is the price that you'll pay, hate is the word you'll say So rather f** Ashley today then go and f** Leah and fade But remember me. Please remember me Cus I need a motive to keep living like this: Tricking smuts to s**ing dick after catching flicks Then brag to my n***as. Ignorance is bliss But body count matters so I don't give a sh** Why should I? No reason given So the only point in living before I f**ing pull the trigger Is f** and Urinate n***a, that's the meaning of F.U.N But ain't no fun in this lone world Devil telling me run Best advice is say please and listen Mother Theresa But won't see dad on knees, with no model why be a believer? No reason given. No reason given?! I need a f**ing reason so that I can blame you for my wrongs if I fail So it's not my fault if I go to hell, when I die or go to jail you get that letter in the mail Please remember me, keep me living, giving to me by keep on sinning Charge may never drop but god dammit keep it pending [Verse 2] Don't believe any of the words I say, the lies I say Don't believe any of the friends you make, the lies they'll make Believe none of what you hear, half of what you see Because they'll deceive you and then you'll cry to me And tears fall down like snow in some trees And trees die because of winter autumn leaves Things fall the wrong way depressed and you'll call I'll be there when you need me for the small cost of prostitution Because p**y's all I need Thinking I need you to show me love, I was stupid Waste another moment, I would lose it f** a destiny, it's my life and I'll choose it Uh, even Martin had a dream n***a I can't believe I had big dreams with you I can give a f** if you like my music you gon hear these words n***a And you gon feel my pain, don't judge what's in my brain I'm damn near insane A slave to the f**ing money damn I need a break Just one break goddamn that's all I need Just one break that's all I need Knowing the blessing of my presence is a f**ing present But I'm just living in the present presenting me I'm present I heard love last forever well I'll test it... I almost tested