Monielle - Identity Is lyrics
[Produced by Caleb Maka] [Intro:] I got a story to tell I dont know why I ever tried To be satisfied In all of these lies And she said... [Verse 1:] When she wake in the morning, she feel like she hung When she wake up, she don't get up out 'til she drug Herself with perceptions and life misconceptions Thinkin' bout the life she livin', no sense of direction She don't wanna live in captivity, inability To make her own decisions cause of desires inside of me When lust rule her mind It gives all her time To objectify Satisfaction she never find She dont wanna be that, she dont wanna feed that Nobody wanna see that, reason they dont want her keepin But how do she deal with her life when she conscious 'n' sober? Her life is too hard and her pa**ion drive her like a motor When he left her side A part of her died Only way to hide To cloud up her mind She don't need to fly Just need a disguise To mask all the lies And the pain inside She know everything about her goin' wrong She don't need to tell you bout it or write it up in a song You can see it in her eyes, the master to her commander All the broken hearts and life regrets of a philanderer She fell to her knees and said... [Chorus:] I don't know where I'm going And I don't know where I've been Faded memories blur together, blown away with the wind My time is ticking away The clouds are a sickening gray My identity is, my identity is, my identity is in me All these empty regrets, and my sickening past, and my starving soul so hungry All I wanna be is, all I wanna be is, all I wanna be is free I wanna dream, I wanna see, i need to be set free [Interlude:] I dont know why I ever tried To be satisfied In all of these lies And he said... [Verse 2:] You know how sometimes it feels Like your life ain't real? You know how your will Gets k**ed off by pills? It's like he breathin' in breath, but he ain't even alive, though Cause he's feelin' purposeless like he got nothin' to live for (Does God exist?) He got his doubts on religion, and some good piercing questions Throw 'em like darts at the freaks when they spittin' Man he wanna believe, and he wanna have hope But how can he do it, when there's nothing we know? All of his perceptions and life misconceptions Are always in disarray and he begin to question "Are my five senses the ways to understand life? Is what I perceive the key to getting it right?" He's had so many spiritual feelings, he don't think they real He keep saying they aren't, cause his doubts they can k** He don't even know if life is real, now he doubt existence I think this doubt is accidentally now his new addiction (Whos he talkin' about? I think he's talkin' about himself) So where do I go from here? At the end of myself, i have a choice to make Doubt everything and hedonize, or be a man of faith? I'm done with distractions to deal with my pain I'm done with a fraction of pleasure and sayin' That i'm feeling happy when i know i ain't A lion protecting his pride feeling faint All my life I've known that I have a fate Fit in with the crowd or go be the change This guy, he and I we have a choice to make Live by our doubts and pleasures or by faith? I fell to my knees and said... [Chorus:] I don't know where i'm going And i don't know where I've been Faded memories blur together, blown away with the wind My time is ticking away The clouds are a sickening gray My identity is, my identity is, my identity is in you All these empty regrets, and my sickening past, I give it all to you All I wanna be is, all I wanna be is, all I wanna be is free I wanna dream, I wanna see, oh please set me free [Verse 3:] I don't know why I ever tried To be satisfied In all of these lies My identity was caught up in these fabrications Illusions and ruses to hide all my pain My doubts they became me, embittered and changed me My flesh it was rottin', and p**n couldn't stop it Addictions they owned me, identity stolen Forget that its over, I won't be the chosen I would rather live a life with purpose and meaning Then live for something that's worthless and fleeting [Outro/Spoken interlude] I hesitantly took a step forward in faith Stepped out of the boat into the water Nobody around me saw the internal change And began to judge me by what my old faults were Could I handle the pressure by all of my peers Or would i just collapse and crumble? Years later and i'm still struggle with fear The fear of man that makes many stumble.