Miscreant - Desolation lyrics

What's the point in living life? When everything I think is outta spite Suicide is corrupting my head Placing all these thoughts of being dead! Feeling hollow with my empathy of life (Of life) It's all just smoke and mirrors The walls I built have broken down They'll say I was just a kid who always wanted more I've never been accepted, just been misdirected You'll hear me drag the chair You'll see me with the rope Shut my door and keep it closed No one will ever know This could be my farewell I tie the noose around my throat Now take that final step I'll Breaking my f**ing neck! I am too scared to do it Leave me alone Should I f**ing do it? Just let me die I barely reached the surface, Forever out of sight I am terrified of my own mind I Resent this affliction Douse my fire and placate this addiction All I deserve is a coffin six feet beneath the ground I hide all my feelings Replaced with a smile But under that pre-tense I've been dead for a while