MindMaze - Twisted Dream lyrics

Struggling to open my eyes The feeling I’ve long despised Desperately feeling the walls Come crumbling down I played the game and held this back I always feared my will would crack And the shame would fit me Like a perfect crown The shame I felt I buried it deep inside Consuming me How can I breathe How can I see an end When regret consumes And overloads my mind How can I move How can I start again When these visions haunt me Like a twisted dream Wearing the past Like a weight Keeping me held In this state Relapses hitting me One by one in line I’ve reached the point Of no return I always thought my heart Would learn To fight the urge To drag me down another time The pain I felt It’s all rushing back to me It just won’t end How can I breathe How can I see an end When regret consumes And overloads my mind How can I move How can I start again When these visions haunt me Like a twisted dream (Thought I’d conquered) The deafening silence The ticking of the clock (Mind it wanders) Back and forth Between what’s real or not (Pain it hurt me) Over and over I’m feeling it flooding back (Over and over and over again) Pulling me under again And now it haunts me In my dreams (Dreams and nightmares) Nothing’s really ever as it seems (Seems it should be) I thought I put it all to rest (All to rest now) But now it’s taken me over again