MikelWJ - Soliloquy (Curtain Call) lyrics

[Verse One: MikelWJ] You lost yourself, and that's bogus. You told me life was hopeless But I found you on my sofa, I was trying hard to focus So I sat back and I wrote this, after we shared one kiss Fact is, f** this, I only came back to run sh** You left me there october, you told me don't come over You left me there alone and so these people call me loner These people call me f*ggot, these people keep me lower But now I'm moving past that, tell me you heard Foreward I don't drink like a catholic, anti-extremist baptist Religions not a practice, and I'm sure God is past this The big man must be pa**ive, since he hasn't been active This path was drastic but now I'm not such a captive [Bridge: MikelWJ] Do you feel where I'm at right now? Do you feel me? Can you see me? (x2) [Verse Two: MikelWJ] Sometimes you're busy chasing light, and get surrounded by dark Sometimes you think you have a life, but you don't know where to start Sometimes it's difficult to understand the thoughts of your heart And so you glue the world together just to tear it apart And now you're lonely and awkward, back and forth like it's soccer You're brain is filled with this clatter and so you call up the doctor And he says you have a problem, You're on your own to recover So technically I blew my brains in front of my mother And brother and sister and father. Even my friends down the street Everybody is destined to feel just like me You've been stressing too much, there's been a strain in your laugh You've been leaning too much, You almost broke right in half You're so scared of the future because you hurt in the past So you're holding on to memories of things that won't last I've been stressing too much, there's been a strain in my laugh I've been leaning too much, I almost broke right in half I'm scared of the future because I ruined the past But now I'm letting go of memories of things that won't last Just give me a blanket I can sleep on the couch I've been up since morning so it's time I come down And I don't want to be drinking, but you can hand it around Since I don't want to get depressed and start f**ing around [Bridge: MikelWJ] Do me a favor Lover Girl Forget me, forget me Do me a favor Lover Girl Forget me, Please forget me [Verse Three: MikelWJ] I'm sorry there if I slipped up, emotions starting to rip up Let them out on a sad song so bad thought's won't build up Good vibes from good lives, when good hearts have good times But good hearts can all die when bad vibes all lend rhymes Matt says that he worries when I start losing sleep I a**ume that he means that I'm not acting like me And it's the truth, I've been kicked right out of my youth So I'm trying real hard to get back all they made me lose My friends likes to question what my songs are about When I know if they were trying they could figure it out And Cody's been busy since he got home from New York Now when I stand next to my friend's it's me coming up short I made a locket with your picture, now it lives on the floor It's not possible for me to take this stress anymore My hands are bound and now tied, to this thought of goodbye And I am working up the guts just to let you know why It's been three long months since I picked up a pen And my chicken scratch journal was questioning where I've been I mean, now I know, fixing utter mental collapse In the back of a mind state all developed by raps