MikelWJ - Metanoia lyrics

[Verse One: MikelWJ] People change all the time, of this I'm very aware I've made enemies of people when they told me they care Do to the obvious fact that they would never be there Which is easily seeable off of their questioning stare I've been paranoid since people started coming and going I was very aware that no one's real colors were showing I just shrugged it all off, saying my friend base was growing But I was losing my freedom without an inch of me knowing My heart got ripped out and stabbed, my friends all stifled a laugh But they never touched my chest, they simply bloodied my back Now let me let you all know that this is not an attack Since I think I'll lose some friends by the end of this track I understand when you're trying to get warm by my ember I'm not clueless to the fact that you're looking for splendor I am very aware who all left, yes I remember So to all of you I'm done with being friendly and tender [Chorus: MikelWJ] I have a working heart, and you can't tell me different Since maybe being different has always been my mission I helped you in the start, but everything is changing The stars around my heart are all rearranging [Verse Two: MikelWJ] I burnt the candle at both ends, like bridges with most friends And ended up with nothing to show for, but loose ends I gave it my best shot, and prayed I don't get caught But ended up with holes in my plan, like a bad thought I've been putting in a little more pa**ion than most But with no reciprocation I just feel like a ghost And I don't want my best friends to think I changed for the worse Since I see this as a gift now instead of a curse I have the mind of an old man, but taking a new stand And giving you the thoughts that you carefully demand I put it on myself to bear the weight of your woe But when I started to break, you could have lightened the load Instead of raising the standard I was supposed to be meeting As well as raising my desire to just cut off my breathing Some people call it metanoia, it's a change in my heart And I think it's safe to say this is the "feel better" part [Chorus] [Bridge: MikelWJ] I no longer care about you, or anything that you do I find it funny how I'm distant but you don't have a clue Just like you thought it was funny denying me any proof Of any "concrete feelings" that were hardly the truth So take a look where you ended, inside a line with the rest Similar to the way I was stuck in line to your chest You never showed me your heart, and so I chose to restart And save myself all of the pain you were bound to impart [Chorus]