Mike Dreams - Losing Myself lyrics

(Verse 1) I guess I'm just living for tonight Don't remember how I got here Lying in this spot here Wishing I was not here A combination of blurry vision And bad decisions A sad collision Sitting with one of the baddest women With ulterior motives But I don't even notice Too busy caught up Just living for the moment In love with everything right now It's like I want it Even if it isn't real But it's simply how I feel Like my flesh is taking over Conscience went unconscious I know it ain't right But I'm constantly unbalanced Just trying to fill a void I need it, I swear I need it Even though I should probably leave it I'm staying, best believe it Cuz in this lonely world I ain't trying to be alone It's late And I don't think That I would even make it home My mind's racing I'm confusing myself Tonight, I think I'm losing myself (Chorus) And I can hear ‘em saying (No, no, no, no, no, no) 3x) But all I keep on sayin' (I know, I know, I know 3x0 But let me go… (Verse 2) My whole life feels like a show That nobody showed up to Like they opened the curtain And it's just you No lights for my eyes to adjust to Still I save face on the surface Take a shot of generational curses While voices telling me drink up I said I'd never touch it But somewhere along the way It made it's way in my discussion My world moving slow Like I'm sipping on Robotussin Double cupping Leaning on people I wouldn't be trustin' In my right mind But somethin' happens when it's night time I mess around and start thinking about my lifetime And all the bad things sitting on my life line And all the wrong things happen at the right time Did some soul searching Hoping that I might find Some of the answers Instead I found cancer Just a metaphor for the sickness Of my addiction Talking to myself But I ain't trying to listen (Chorus) (Verse 3) Lord please Lead me away from these Mistakes I'm making Giving into temptation Me, I'm just impatient With this complacent life Maybe that's why I I stay away at night Thinkin' bout my future Trying to find my place in life Friday Night sins Saturday regrets Sunday morning repentance Monday, I'm feeling blessed Tuesday, I'm still living Wednesday, I start slippin' Thursday, I'm getting anxious Friday, I'm back sitting In that very same position Chillin' with random women Searching for false love Desires for new beginnings Going in a cycle The reason I'm going psycho Swinging in the devil's playground Cuz all of this time idle And don't realize that it's hurting Every time Was searching for Nirvana, but then I said Nevermind Please forgive for abusing myself I need help I'm losing myself (Chorus 2x)