Michelle Shocked - Russian Roulette lyrics

I need this hopeless feeling Like I need a hole in my head Give up my whole days wages To get this hole in the wall I call a holster that is empty Just a gun to the head I am a holy roller I'm playing Russian Roulette I've been told gambling's a sin I'm gonna place my bet I'm gonna play to win Yea I'm sure it's a cure for the blues You lose you win, or you win you lose I cried "Oh sweet Lord" But there's no hope in praying Somebody hold me tight I'm in a whole lot of pain I'll be a whole lot older When this day is done I say Russian Roulette Is just a hole in one I've been told gambling's a sin I'm gonna place my bet I'm gonna play to win Yea I'm sure it's a cure for the blues You lose you win, or you win you lose