Michael Green - Letting go lyrics

This is it, I'm gonna lose another dream I wanna scream, please lead me into the sea.. And leave me, to float away and u will never see.. Me again, before I fail at another thing Sick of it, I'm sick of losin' all the time And fallin out of place and losin where I was in line Wanna cry, I wipe the tears before my blurry eyes.. Gotta live to make you proud, but what the hell am I? Look at me, my whole life is dog sh** I'm 23, what the f** have I accomplished? All this, is fallin down, I'm feelin nauseous Life's a problem, well I need your help to solve it.. Help me, I need your hand to show me Or throw a rope to grab a hold so you can pull me.. Hold me, I'm growing cold and old and lonely.. I need to figure out a reason life is closing Find me, I'm lost this time Im crying Hiding, my fear is right behind me Find me. I'm pacing out each breath between the lightning Grab me cuz' i'm letting go Here I go again I made a promise that I wouldn't cry Yes I lied as I begin to load this gun that I.. Use to lose, a life you knew I'd never have a prime.. 23 years, accomplished nothing, wasted time... Look at me, I'm reaching for another dream.. First I wanna be a writer then I wanna sing Now I wanna rap or act or just another thing.. I wrote upon the list Of things I'm never gonna be f** this! I'm tossin' in the towel.. Life is over, yeah you're right I am a coward... Leaving every1 i'm on a downward spiral No more time to read the bible this is my world People smile, it's time to show you're happy Sick of black sheep and people laughing at me.. Sad, please I need a reason as I'm grabbing.. The last thing my fingers grip before my pa**ing.. Find me, I'm lost this time Im crying Hiding, my fear is right behind me Find me. I'm pacing out each breath between the lightning Grab me cuz' i'm letting go Silence, this room is void of violence, I am... Afraid to pull this, why I'm crying I'll never know I need your hand for guidance... Im letting go, I'm coming..home God I'm sorry, man I'll never lose my faith again.. And life and love n afterlife is just a con of man I understand and I forgive the church's lies Or land.. beyond the skies in afterlife we reach upon the end... Rely on us or on yourself to make a way in life.. Believe in love but god is just a lie we made to try... N understand, this reason why we breathe and speak and fight.. A reason why we are alive, n never have to die