Mia X - R.I.P., Jill lyrics

[Chorus] Its not a day in my life that goes by That I don't get high as the tears fill my eyes And I scream why, did my sister have to die Lord Take these evil plots off my mind Lord Its not a day in my life that goes by That I don't get high as the tears fill my eyes And I scream why, did my sister have to die Lord Take these evil plots off my mind Lord [Verse] It's so hard to say goodbye to what we had, I'm still mad I'm still bitter, no still get rid of Pain inside me been active two years It's like it happened yesterday and I'm consumed in tears I feel ya near But it's not the same, won't be the same We can't call each other up for advice or hang No more, n***a to that left me with some memories Tangled with the thoughts that he bleeds, dies slowly For sholy, my needs to see him suffer f**s with my mind And leaves a cluster of rage and hate inside Thou shall not k**, an eye for an eye Turn the other cheek, you reap what you sow, which way should I go So many times I contemplate on murder Cause only a monster could of hurt ya, you're a ghetto flower So every hour, minute, second of the day I pray that turmoil haunts his whole family, till eternal sleep From the elderly to the unborn You cannot know how I feel till you mourn how I've mourned It's all real, I love hard and hate with a pa**ion So when they took my best friend, my heart shattered and left me empty I used to had been in love And all my n***as trying to figure out why it's so tough for me To love em' like I'm supposed to But since you got k**ed Jill it's hard for me to get close to Anybody who cares for me, so I been dealing with this pain by my lonely I strongly despise, motherf**ers trying to speak your mind Whoever knew you, with pitchfork tongues spreading rumors This dame ain't bout sh** without my sister by my side My strength, my best friend, my pride makes me wanna ride Jill I know you got your wings, fixed hair up in Heaven While Michelle sings "Precious Love", it's so hard for me to let go Because the hate has stayed in my soul and made me so cold Even though I know she's resting now A major part of my life was cut out, pray for me Lord [Chorus x2] [Mia X & Mo B. Dick ad-libs to fade]