MGK - The Return lyrics

And they say they know me, get the f** outta here. Only God know what I've been through man. So if you want to talk Get your facts straight first And if you really want to know Let me ask you something Have you ever walked in the shoes of a giant Or had the fill the position of a boss before you were even a client? Its no wonder growing up under the roof of a tyrant That I would be the poster boy for defiance Now in the voice of the silenced, f** being quiet I've seen twenty years worth of violence, I'm tired it's a burden for me to open my eyelids Not an under cover cop but it's safe to say that I'm wired. I can't even get a grip on my life with pliers, I'm f**ed up in the head Close my eyes 'cause I see demons round my bed So depressed, open 'em up, hopin' I'm dead thought the fame would make it better, but it only f**ed me over. never used to touch a bottle, now I'm hardly ever sober. People want to be my friend, But where the f** were y'all when I was ten, eleven and twelve getting bullied and beat up in the gym. I couldn't never get a girl now all of a sudden I'm the man students try to get back cool with me again f** 'em all. 'Cause guess where they're gonna be when my records Stop playin' Gone with the wind off in the record shops saying that Kells fell off I knew what would happen, stop hating 'cause a month ago you was all over my jock sayin' That I'm that mu-f**er, but now I'm wack mu-f**er? opinions change but you cannot change facts mu-f**er if you want bullet points then call me a gat mu-f**er I'll lay my whole life out like a mat mu-f**er and I've experienced some things that will stop you from eating my schizophrenic cousin tried to end my life while I'm sleeping my bummy uncle wanna call now that he's sees me succeeding my momma left me for a teacher lost my dad to the preaching half my friends are buried six feet all the rest in the precinct Literally watched my grandmother die from diabetes I guess my prayers were answered when aunt got cancer and beat it now I wanna get her out of there give her the Garden of Eden. I did a lot of bad sh** God got even but for the price I had to pay I wish I'd stopped breathing My girl sat in the bath tub 8 hours bleeding Hearin' the doctor tell us our child's heart stop beating. f** a million, I wouldn't take a dollar for a life But I will do what's in my heart and trade this dollar for a mic I wrote this song in hopes that it could help someone get through the night with no intention of getting paid, I'm doing what it's right I do it for the fans, no, the real fans who stuck with me through the storm 'cause they understand That there's a genuine pain Behind the words I'm sayin' and they embrace me So I thank you all for stayin' ain't it crazy that pa**ion is my Achilles Heel? either that or keepin' it way too real But they don't know how It feels To feed off the energy of a crowd step on stage And they get loud And dad, I'mma make you proud I know we don't speak right now But I think turning new leaves what we need right now I love you and you may not see right now But I'm begging for forgiveness I'm on my knees right now You saw your son as a drop out stuck around when I ran Saw your son as a felon Now see your son is a man See you son be a father, to a beautiful child Or just see your son, dad and see me smile. Who would have thought what started at the bottom would someday grow From three people in the crowd, unpaid shows Six people in the room, one meal a day another opening act when no one knows my name saw the demo's that I pa**ed out layin' on the ground saw the rappers I be-friended copying my style saw opportunities pa** while these fakes got rich Now I can't stop speeding like brakes ain't sh** for six months i went thru hell and back, right at the height of my success all of a sudden doctor said I couldn't rap I had a polyp on my vocal cords, left with a choice, stop now or possibly lose my voice But I woke up every morning and recorded till my throat swelled shut coughed blood after every show, because it hurt that much, I went weeks without even sayin' a word to myself No health insurance so doctor bills piled on the shelf but for my daughter and my fam' and every single fan I pushed through it and now I'm back for ya'll again as for my competition this the beginning of the end but right now this is my return, Amen Kells