Mercifuljay - At a glance lyrics

[Verse 1: Mercifuljay] Hustling everyday Looking for a easier way to live Scheming to just get by Ashamed of the things I did I Got to the point of live or die I'd do anything to survive But starving i could have died Living my life second none My whole life I've thought of everyone But this time in my life I was number one I was alone with nothing to loose The noose is only for the weak Late nights not being able to sleep Anger, frustration and adrenaline kept me focused on my target Didn't know what I got myself into Couldn't understand how this started I was scared at first and held back like a recluse Felt like I had no use or purpose Confused But truth is I had a fresh start And I set the rules Rebuilding my life from a shell Taking risks to get out this hell I done it all for one person but myself Who I can't tell But when I can I hope my son understands Cause I got no blood on my hands [Verse 2: Mercifuljay] You might get told growing up I didn't care for you I did it for a better stance But why should I hang around When your mother had other plans She didn't even give me a chance It was like a few weeks for her to start a new romance So you can't blame me She was my wife to be So when am here looking at glance and thank god That am here because you'll need me Like I need you I know this was the right thing to do Because I want you to never forget that I may be far away But am always here for you No matter what am doing I'm doing it for you Because your my son