MEF - Venting lyrics

I try to breathe hoping I can see Not trying drown in lies when God is all I believe Love causes problems Life line at the bottom Been through childhood, trying to handle my teen years In my eyes I represented fear Look at me now and all you'll see is I don't care Struggling and down my eyes are tears Sick of seeing the fake happiness And feeling real scared.... Its like no matter what it don't matter Loved a girl named Christina Saw her recently but her emotions got me sadder She took a glance and hardly recognize The little bit, she placed in this guy f** it though, you my family, no I've been following for so long And your oscar show deserves a bravo Amazing all the pain I caged in So I cut and release, sharp as an asian Dam I'm fading, from existence Loving girls but wife types kept they distance Sick of being lucky The flu ignorance..... I could probably be better But I feel so much pressure Like wearing a sweater in hot weather A pirate searching years for trea**ure This venting doesn't give me pleasure How could you dare say you know me When all you are is my homie Said you down but hardly around Thats why I'm always f**ing lonely Thanks a bunch Doubt I'll enjoy my lunch This is f**ed up in so many ways I started smoking again on the low But Lydia said quit it right away I just started listening To that voice in the sky Dad your so dam high Wonder will God make me fly And mama I' sorry I've been a dumb guy I cry in the dark Because I swear in the light of things I lost, I'm lost in the dark