MayDay Hobby - A Cure For Devastation lyrics

[Verse 1: MayDay] Pull the trigger Go ahead and put me to ease Cure this devastation around my neck Begging for more orders From those who turned their backs On me while I was down I never begged for any bread I never hated on anyone Just because of their checks I was allowed to sacrifice And that's all I did To feed my family We couldn't even pay rent I was a sinner in many ways But I never let myself sink In the same pool of tears That my mother left for me I never felt sorry for myself But it's hard when you don't know yourself Trying to look through others To find some satisfaction To find a reason not to repaint The canvas you were given And sometimes my mind was my weapon All my thoughts pouring on my sleeves I promised myself that next time There wouldn't be any blood That I wouldn't give in to this disease Of hustling and proving That I'm stronger than the riches Then I found myself in my reflection Watching diamonds and chains hang From my neck that was caught up in dreams Visions that were starting to come clean And I said no to the fame I said no to putting pride next to my name But being humble isn't easy When you're trapped in the game Some have an advantage Some choose different paths Some call success the definition of being trapped In money and more of it They can never get enough They just let it spill out of their pockets They let it shine for the world But then say it's a curse And we talk about money not being a real issue But tell me how can you speak For those who are begging on the streets? And tragedy comes with any circumstance You could be lighting up in your mansion But still feel like you're dead cause [Hook: Vontulius the Crown] It ain't easy I don't need nobody to speak for me They say, just take it easy They say it like they know But I know that they don't It ain't easy I don't need nobody to preach to me They say, just take it easy They say it like they know But I know that they don't [Verse 2: MayDay] Pull the trigger Go ahead and take me back To those nights of waking up Constant turning and worrying of The situations that came Seemed like they would never end I was reaching out for a light But darkness kept creeping in I had a soul that was empty Crawling for something to save it I apologize to anyone who was forsaken Just know that I was in the position Of losing everything that I was winning I was trapped in my bad habits I quit the sh** that kept me from Building a relationship with everyone Who cared so much and prayed That I'd find the strength To win all these battles That seemed impossible at the time I had to search so hard To find who I really am Had to push past the adversities That I thought were holding me back But from the outside it seemed Like no hardships were discovered That I had it easy, that I didn't understand pain But just cause the scars aren't visible Doesn't mean I'm free from the tragedies I wish I could go back So I'd ask mama if she's proud of me I wish I could have tried harder But I wouldn't change anything Cause everything I am Is all because of my mistakes I rather find fault with myself Then blame it on anyone else And I know I talk about my father I can't deny that he's a factor But every decision I made I own up to it and try to maintain Who I really am, trying to keep sane And everyone can speak about Things they don't know So I welcome them to a different world One where their eyes can be guided By fame and then be blinded cause [Hook: Vontulius the Crown] It ain't easy I don't need nobody to speak for me They say, just take it easy They say it like they know But I know that they don't It ain't easy I don't need nobody to preach to me They say, just take it easy They say it like they know But I know that they don't [Outro: Vontulius the Crown] I know they don't understand it I know they wanna feel like they do I know that they talk about it Like it's just something they do I know it's the circumstances But we always rise above them I know it ain't easy I know it ain't easy I know they don't understand it I know they want to pretend like they do I know they speak about tragedy As if it's just something they go through I know it's the situation But we can always change it I know it ain't easy I know it ain't easy