MayDay Hobby - Inside My Head lyrics

[Verse 1: MayDay] Yeah and they kept on screaming You'll never be anything, so why you even trying? And I kept on writing Letting all the verses take me back to when I was dying From all of the pain and all of the "you'll never make it, just go ahead and put the pen away" And the echoes of my father saying that I better get a job where I'm actually getting paid And my mother taught me to never give up and to never let anyone tell me what I'm not capable of Cause the only judge of what I can do and be is me I kept on thinking that it meant to stay true And to keep on climbing ladders and pushing through doors I couldn't get to But all I hear people say these days is that success means getting money And more of it so you can buy mansions and diamonds And get anyone that you'd ever want Get laid every day of every single month And put some gold chains around your neck And try to tell the people less fortunate than you That maybe one day you'll write them a check [Hook: MayDay] And so I never let them get inside my head I told myself it'll never happen even when I'm dead And the images of fame popped up in my mind But success these days is different than what I was always trying [Verse 2: MayDay] And how are we supposed to change our society with our messed up ways And go back to the torn up neighborhood we grew up in And tell them that hope is somewhere locked up in their rooms The one where they go to, to run away from all of the damage and the blood And try to see the world the way that other kids see it from the other block How devastating that we forget where we came from As soon as one check falls into our hands We forget that those hands were once fighting for a single slice of bread And that mouth that was starving and trying to say how it felt Is now roaring and saying whatever it wants to come out You see misery never felt this good Cause back then we didn't have anything to look forward to And all we did was pray every night Telling God that we know that somewhere there's a light But that life is getting more miserable and harder And that we just don't understand how it'll turn around And how we'll be able to afford to keep living like this And one day try to go to college and try to get a job and have kids But what if we stay right where we are And never get to see what happiness consists of [Hook: MayDay] And so I never let them get inside my head I told myself it'll never happen even when I'm dead And the images of fame popped up in my mind But success these days is different than what I was always trying [Verse 3: MayDay] And I know my mother kept telling me that all I have to do is believe And everything will one day come to me But it's hard to believe in anything when you can't even escape from reality And you don't have time to process the mistakes you've made Or the friends that you've lost and the family members who pa**ed away And they tell you to keep your head up high But how can you tell me that when you don't even know what this type of life is like The type where you don't know if you'll even have food to eat for the next five days The type of life where you lock your door and cover your ears Listen to music to block out all the yelling and the fighting and the chairs that break And the tears that you're fighting The type of life where you're not surrounded by books but d** And you learn that there's no such thing as love And that you're always going to be on your own So you might as well start accepting who you are and relying on yourself So that no one else can ever tear you apart Yeah it's easy for other people to talk and judge And try to tell you who they think you are But they don't see inside your heart Or listen to your thoughts When you've reached the point of almost giving up [Hook: MayDay] And so I never let them get inside my head I told myself it'll never happen even when I'm dead And the images of fame popped up in my mind But success these days is different than what I was always trying [Verse 4: MayDay] Yeah they told me I'd be nothing Yeah they told me I'd stay right where I am And dig my own grave right next to the other ones The ones no one remembered And no one cared enough to lay down some flowers for They told me to forget about my dreams Telling me that those were only for the rich And the ones who could actually accomplish something They told me that it's ok for me to give up That people like me have to cause there aren't any opportunities left for people like us And the truth is that I started believing them I let their voices fill up my lungs But I never let them fIll up my heart Cause deep inside I had this vision That I'd be able to prove all of them wrong And show my mother that she can finally be proud of her son I'd wake up all my people from their graves Let them see that one of them made it out safe And keep fighting against those voices That once told them that my people were useless And I'd be able to look in my mirror and say "I knew you'd make it, I knew you'd finally be happy I believed in you and can finally say I'm proud Keep on showing them that they'll always be wrong Yeah you made it, yeah you were strong" [Hook: MayDay] And so I never let them get inside my head I told myself it'll never happen even when I'm dead And the images of fame popped up in my mind But success these days is different than what I was always trying