MayDay Hobby - For Mama lyrics

[Verse 1: MayDay] Look at this photo Reminds me to always look back Childhood is a concoction Use it to take some of the pain away To remind you that now you're in a better place These nights I've been sitting on my bed Thanking God that I'm not dead Remembering the days I stayed under my covers Fearing tomorrow cause life was sh** I started making bad decisions Making friends who had the wrong ambitions Weapons and d** became my love Fighting was something I couldn't get enough of f**ing the next b**h who climbed on my lap Took them off their poles And placed them on my bed Ditched each one for a new one Cause one night stands don't create emotions That way my heart's not broken Watched my closest friends die One got shot, the others took too many d** Mama said I'd end up like them If I didn't quit messing around My only dream was to make her proud But bad habits become destructive And no one can make you stop That's when you're stuck in a trap One that keeps holding you back And life's not going to save you now And time's tired of showing you a way out [Hook: MayDay] I wish I hadn't done it I wish I had made your proud I wish I had told you That you're the reason I live by love And keep moving on I keep my head held high To see you watching over me Thank you Mama Thank you for believing in me [Verse 2: MayDay] Yeah money's been calling me Ever since I was a kid Pulled me into what looked like luxury But really was a pot full of pain I ate envy and swallowed poverty Spit out fame and held on to my lies The truth s**ed me back in Mama was telling me, "You better get clean." The night I was debating on it Was when she could barely breathe I rushed to her bed and took her to the hospital Walked inside losing my mind The doctor came out and looked at me In a way I'll never forget Said, "We're sorry to say this But your Mother is dead." I screamed and punched the walls Fists started bleeding And my tears washed it off That day destroyed me Took away every ounce of my hope The day of her funeral I barely held it together Got up to the stand and broke down Pulled it together though Cause I wanted everyone to hear The words about to come out of my mouth I said, "Bless my mama She was the only person who kept me alive She raised me by myself Cause dad was never around Always taught me to put God first And be careful of what I say Told me to treat others well Cause we don't know their misery Her heart was the kindest She loved me even when I put her through hell Making the worse decisions Not thinking about the stress it put her through I just wanted us to have enough money Even though she kept reminding me That everything was good I know she's watching over us all today Wanting us to smile I can't do that right now Cause I'm wishing that she'd come back But she's in God's house now In the best place she could ever be Rest in peace mama Know that as of today I'm clean." I stepped down and went and Put yellow roses on her grave Kissed her photo And kneeled down and prayed Today marks 7 years I love you Mama Know that Lily loves you too Even though she never saw you I've told her how wonderful you were That you still inspire me to be a better father Believe in myself and keep working harder Thank you Mama for everything you've done Rest in peace Mama I hope one day I make you proud [Hook: MayDay] I wish I hadn't done it I wish I had made your proud I wish I had told you That you're the reason I live by love And keep moving on I keep my head held high To see you watching over me Thank you Mama Thank you for believing in me