Matthew Youkhana - Remission lyrics

(VERSE 1) How do I believe? How will I succeed? When the future is becoming hopeless and me overdosing is the only option I see Decreased by vicious disease, the easiest way out was seeming complete I see me screaming in the face of defeat Seeking tranquillity, give me peace, can I please be released? As I'm separated away from disease I was medicated, decaying, I'm weak Torn thinking I'm picking petals, they're all thorns I've been up and down always elevated away from a smile Descending forever into my own frown Volatile state of mind, someone please get me out (CHORUS) [Matt Gelsomino-Novelists] It's been way too long Putting up a fight inside that I know I can barely beat I've been pushed but I've pulled on All of these strings in my heart, I know that they can't feel me Tell me why I can't breathe Is it all a facade, is it all my dream? I've been fighting for far too long (VERSE 2) As I sat on the sun's saddle, my heart's pain rattled the leaves Direct into a hundred thousand degrees Skin is a repellent, internal I bleed, I concede Walking towards my sanctuary, my ankles barely kept up with the travel That my mind is set to carry the concoction of hope and pessimism it had me really worried Had me either hoping to die or dying with hope in my heart; pick a side Look inside this barrel of empty promises to find something keeping me alive I feel my heart reply when I decide to try Tell me why a journey that seeks the strong sought out me but failed to thrive Tell me why (CHORUS)