Matthew Sweet - Behind The Smile lyrics

I haven't been a good friend For a long long time You know i wasn't happy Behind the smile Anywhere you look A reason to believe But i think of what it took To bring me to my proper place And i haven't been a good friend For a long long time I haven't been a good friend While you've been mine Now am i by your side Or standing in your way 'cause if this is a sign I don't know what it's sposed to mean And i haven't been a good friend For a long long time I haven't been a good friend While you've been mine I have seen my perfect day I have watched it fade away You know i'm fighting to be real I haven't been a good friend For a long long time You know i haven't been happy Behind the smile