Matthew Ryan - Railroaded lyrics

Well, I smoked my throat out last night Hoping you'd call or just stop by Now I'm wheezing like the Oakland sky Feeling like the rusted tracks and forgotten dreams of the old train lines It's a perpetual stone in my shoe One that I'll always be trying to shake loose An ache in my chest and a thorn in my side More than a scratch beneath the skin Somewhere between the beginning and the end I don't feel a lot lately I don't feel whole lately I don't feel much lately But that's how I hide, that's how I hide Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh You wrote it down not to draw attention to yourself You lit the pilot just to blow it out Here the conversation's always too loud And we're as pathetic as the jumper who listens to the crowd To say I miss you wouldn't be enough I feel like tom waits singing "Diamonds And Rust" And I'm as pathetic as a junkie who know what he does It's a perpetual stone in my shoe One that I'll always be trying to shake loose An ache in my chest and a thorn in my pride More than a scratch beneath the skin Somewhere between the beginning and the end I don't feel a lot lately I don't feel whole lately I don't feel much lately But that's how hide, that's how I hide Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh