Marodium - Search for Relief lyrics

Watch me, as the fear forces me to descend If these were the last of my hours, you still could not make me repent I never asked for any of this, and I never want to do it again There's nothing else left of me, but the bitter taste of resent How can this, beat me to d**h? Why do I, reject myself? This will be the end of thee, for insanity just spoke to me I'm in a search for relief If only it was the last time, maybe I could live with the sins But after ages of this treachery, I'm left with way too much within While this fight stretches me too thin, I cannot see nor feel the end But in this moment of my ailment, only agony is my friend I crave this madness inside And from this feeling, not even I can hide While the world so steadily burns and my fragile mind collapses I'll try to muster my last strength, and rebuild from the ashes A staggering scent of victory, but as I feared, everybody has left me I want a break, I want out of this life, I no longer want to live all these lies How can this, beat me to d**h? Why do I, reject myself? This will be the end of thee, for insanity just spoke to me I'm in a search for relief Where do I, find the strength? How do I, retain my will? I must go on, I will not falter due to hate I will find my relief