Mark Kozelek - Ceiling Gazing lyrics

Laying in my bed ceiling gazing Wide awake with jet lag from Australia Got a stack of mail and a wedding invitation From a new, young relative, I've never even knew of Got me thinking about my Grandpa for some reason Met him half a dozen times in the nursing home Last time I saw him he was in a box And they were lowering him into the ground St. Mary's Church stood so high It was the first and the last time I saw my Dad cry The ground had a thin coat of snow And I wandered off in the cold It's 3:47 am, June 13th It's my sister's birthday today, I think I wanna give her a call, see how she's doing She had a rough divorce, I hope she's improved I want to reach out and give her my love Put a smile on her face like when we were young Listening to records from the library Hermit of Mink Hollow and Dreamboat Annie She lives with her daughters all alone Across the street from a cornfield in Ohio One's 4, one's 7 and I love them so I want to live a long time and see them grow Outside my window tonight Sausalito's twinkling lights My love's beside me deep asleep The dog is laying between my feet Outside my window tonight The cargo ships are cruising by And I'm so happy to be alive To have these people in my life Laying in my bed ceiling gazing Can't make my mind stop from racing It's not good or bad, it's just how God made me To lay awake at night ceiling gazing