Mark Kozelek - Ruth Marie lyrics

I grew so old in that house I lived in They brought me here 'cause I can't take care I lost my worth and my purpose here I feel you cry, but I can't speak my mind Will you hold me and never let me go? 'Cause I hated when you walk outside that door 'Cause I know I won't ever see your eyes The eyes I gave you When my eyes shut, they'll take me to the land For fifty years I lived there with my man And on my own, I lived for forty more I watched you grow up from babies on the floor To the beautiful women that you are And I hated that you've gone away so far 'Cause I know I won't ever see those eyes The eyes I gave you The evenings fall, they'll drag me out the hall Up to my bunk and drug me 'til I'm numb But pa** the haze, I see your pretty face Remember me when I'm gone You know I love you, though I can hardly say And I hate it when you see me in this way But in darkness, I'll always see those eyes The eyes I gave you