Mark Kozelek - With A Sort of Grace I Went to the Bathroom to Cry lyrics

My friend Theresa, she's been in a lot of pain Was there recently, had took up all the space in my brain She lives there, by a cornfield So was it the spray or was it the medication she took to get herself through her day We got into her car and we drove around The Ohio roads that were flooded with rain on the ground We got into a car and we drove around “Teaser and the Firecat” and “Tea For the Tillerman” were in the background When I was a kid, I kept toads and garter snakes In the window well and they drowned when it rained Before the snow came down in the winter I dug a hole for my box turtle He'd hibernate until Spring I'd come and get him And I took her picture near a red fire hydrant near an old barn And then we ate at Eadie's Fish House in North Canton And that night we watched Jimmy Buffet on Jimmy Fallon And I went to sleep on her couch while she walked off to her bedroom And I kissed her goodnight And I looked at her tired eyes With a sort of grace I walked to the toilet to cry Because I remember when we were just young Just young, young little kids Before the heaviness of life took over every f**ing thing Because I remember when we were just young Young, young little kids Playing the Ouija board on a yellow card table in her mother's basement And when I'm walking down the Ohio roads I remember all the turtles and snakes and the frogs and the toads And all the ponds and lakes, the records and 8-track tapes I loved Emerson Lake and Palmer's Brain Salad Surgery but Eric Clapton's Slowhand gave me a f**ing headache And as I walk around the block that you live on I see poetry in every inch of it I see lightning bugs flicker at dusk In the overgrown weeds at house being foreclosed on And I walk over to the church at the intersection Fluorescent blue painted handicapped parking spaces And at the side of the road I see a dead groundhog laying on his back And I walk over to him and there's another groundhog nearby in the weeds Breathing fast like he's having a panic attack My friend Theresa she's been in so much pain When I visit her, I do my best not to b**h or complain So I goof around and I like to tell her dumb jokes But underneath it all I've got a gnawing fear deep in my bones Because someone I love is so sick and so tired and weak I want to make her laugh because everything's been so goddamn f**ing bleak But I'm here to give her my love when and while I can Because I gotta go back to work like any other working man And I went out tonight and I got her Kraus' pizza Anything I could do for my beloved friend Theresa And I got her a brand new bed cause her back's so f**ing bad I went to a department store and picked it out with my dad I love you, love you, love you, love you Theresa And I'm really sorry that I gotta leave you I always knew you wanted to play and sing I always knew you'd leave Ohio and cross a bunch of oceans and seas But there is no sound I love more or that is more healing Then when I close my eyes and you sing personally to my kids and me And as I walk around the block you live on It smells so much like our childhood It smells so much like our old neighborhood I remember when I first heard Led Zeppelin's "Tea For One" Laying by my bedroom window on Valium soaking up the warm afternoon sun rays And in those minutes, hours, I was totally content And I'll take that memory to my grave as one of my happiest moments And I remember you swimming at Turkeyfoot Me and my dad were up in his fishing boat Tossing our lines out onto the lake With the minnow bucket hanging by a stringer off the edge of the boat And I remember watching the bobbers and waiting for a ba** to take the bait And I remember your big happy smile While you were wading out there in the water And that smile still graces your face And the faces of your beautiful young daughters