Mark**a Beats - My Focus lyrics

[Verse 1] Sometimes I wonder what this sh** really means to me Cause the road of uncertainty's all I seem to see Cloudy thoughts every night same thing when I wake up Wishing I could be a kid again where these grown problems never faced us Poppa just turned 60 time flying so swiftly Which reminds me this rap game don't mean a damn thing if he Don't get to see me successful it's stressful just to think about Everything that he gave for us whole ship would've sank without my poppa And all I've got to offer Is the dream of being an entertainer when I could've went and been a doctor Or a lawyer or whatever the f** I could've been with a college degree Thought of him giving up everything getting set in vain keeps following me When truthfully by now he should be proud of us Cause me and my brother and sister never had a struggle that was ever clouding us From a rare black house hold with poppa home I'm thankful cause the blueprint that was set I got to clone For the man in me and how to raise me a family Fear struck when that stroke hit cause taking him would've damn sure took my sanity But he pulled through with his life and more so all his health in sight I feel I have to take this time to make things right [Hook] I'm just trying to keep my focus, lord (x2) [Verse 2] My uncle talking bout suicide no one knowing what they posed to do What happens when you get to running out of helping hands from people that's close to you Stress will get to overdosing you when every option that you chose to do Crumbled with and now your money grip is not enough in digits that can hold you through All your bills that's stacked up and now your rent gets backed up Landlord lacks f**s to give so now that place you shacked up Turns vacant that's the type of sh** he been facing Misplaced in a nation so far we can't even offer consolation My momma keep telling me not to make his same mistakes My own two feet to stand on she preached bout since my birth date My worst fate in this lifetime is to wind up needing a life line on a constant basis So I set my goals in constellations Trying to reach them I refuse to ever be screeching to halt quick Trying to do all this sh** right cause I feel it's me every ounce of fault hits Blame none for your own life for the most part it's yours to shape Yours to make the most of and coordinate Take time when you orchestrate all your plans to prosper Cause to get back time that you might just lose ain't never been one of life's offers Everything you have it might cost you But a big risk usually comes with a big gain and so I hope this path I chose was proper [Hook] [Verse 3] 25 summer seasons I done been through Better bet your a** I'm blessed I'm breathing Even if you don't believe in that issue that's seizing My kind from these streets in a flash and leaving families grieving I was raised to live like I'm an endangered species with good reason Little Brandon pa**ed and still ain't no clue bout who let those shots bang So ain't no way I think we'll ever know just why he got slain Damn shame how this plot rings so much still can we not change Shocked pained and distraught was his whole block as those tear drops rained Shot down like a rabid dog in the road he was slaughtered So a mom done lost her child and a child done lost her father Now who the f** gon raise his daughter she don't deserve to be Left without the man who gave her life in this cold world that we Have a hard enough time raising these kids in god bless The men who take life by ten two for they kids with no contest Fatherhood is no calm quest a couple my n***as are on that I pray yall keep the strength to get through how some of yall baby mom's act I dodged that bullet years ago from a crazy baby mama But a child deserves your best even if that lady bringing drama To all my unborn children my life has no success to see If yall don't feel yall got the best of me, I just gotta keep my focus