Call it panic or a mistake I never really thought about what I'd take Either way, I chose to disregard you I'm all in a knot, and I guess I messed up I went from caring to not giving a f** And I'll never find a way to say I'm sorry 'cause I could hear you, and I could see you, if I could've been here at another time If I would've said something, done something, let you in at the time And now I'm lost out here, astray I need so badly what I threw away If you could read my mind, would you even bother? So I'll just sit here drugged and dumb, pretending like I'm having fun a campfire my remedy for having nothing, nothing better Now I'm cold, I'm hot I'm warm, I'm not I'm heavy, but I'm a feather I'm high, I'm low I really don't know I can't pull myself together If I would've said something at the time If I really would've known you known me