[Verse 1: Manga Saint Hilare] I know you don't like it when I'm not picking up And I play truant Phone numbers that you don't know And you roll through it Clothes and chaps Before I show you it Dumb situations that I throw you in I just tell these white lies so fluent I should be a bigger man and don't do it I just find myself doing what I know I shouldn't be Even though I promised you that I won't do it I'm just adding to the stereotypes and clichés Finding it harder to look in your eyes and each day Chipping a way at that small bit of trust that we made It's a bleak maze 'Cause sometimes I really was just sitting in my house all day But it's sad when the he-say, she-say holds more weight And I know I f** up Sorry for breakfast, sorry for lunch Sorry for being sorry man, I know i'm a c*nt But I know I can learn to be the man that you want And need, I know it's hard to believe I got the same promises on repeat She said, "give me a reason to stay around" I replied and my phone, face down [Chorus x2: Manga Saint Hilare & J Grey] Just hate me slow and love me fast (Hate me slow and love me fast) Embrace my future, accept my past (Embrace my future, accept my past) Trust my flaws and kiss my scars (Trust my flaws and kiss my scars) [Bridge: J Grey] Yo, where are you Manga? Like, she just phoned me to find out where you are And no one knows where you are like You need to stop disappearing like this Let one of us know where you are please [Bridge part 2: Manga Saint Hilare] Just give me one more last chance (one more last chance) The fact I find it easy just makes it so hard (it makes it so hard) Look, i'm not perfect, not one of us here are (not one of us here are) I know the times that I let down f**ries and pars [Verse 2: Manga Saint Hilare] But you know that I love you right I know I'm loving you wrong but I love you right I can't really imagine what it must be like Putting up with my sh** for the hundredth time I don't know how you deal with all the lust and lies Wandering eyes, scroll through then unlikes I know you wanna listen to your mum's advice "f** that guy, will never be a son of mine Until he mans up and treats you right" alright Alright, alright, alright, I know she's right But i'm trying, i'm trying, i'm trying, you know i'm trying Lies all lies and lies, I know you're tired, I lie And I don't wanna make you bitter, let's make this better But if you go, then you go But if you stick around, as long as we're together just [Chorus x2] [Outro: J Grey] It's always 4 in the morning and I'm tired fam And it's always 4 in the morning I am tired, i'm tired of stupid sh** like um Okay, I'm tired of going on instagram Going on the explore page And just, just seeing some random, perfect looking girl With four thousand three hundred and twenty-nine million likes On a picture of her toe But this toe is like the most perfect toe you've ever seen in your life And then you go on her page and you see that this b**h is flawless And then the next day, you just go on instagram And apparently this b**h has got a twin Because there's another flawless girl Who's got four thousand three hundred and twenty-nine thousand billion likes And you're just like, where are these girls? Who are these girls who are flawless everyday Just living life, with their Chanel bags and their perfect lives And oh look she's jetting out to [?], Taiwan and singapore And eating at Nobu every single minute of the day And it's like, I cannot actually pay my phone bill right now Loving yourself is potentially the hardest thing to do in the 21st century