Madlib - Mr. Suicidal lyrics

It's a throwback Lootpack (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) [Intro] Now when Madchild walks before Madchild looks I swear to God I should be dead from all the pills I took But I'll be okay (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) [Verse 1] Raise your hands if you're going insane If you're feeling so depressed you wanna blow out your brains And you've been to darker places you won't try to explain But still you try to keep it moving then we're probably the same I used to get high like trucks on lift kits Then I woke up and I said f** this sh** I made a promise to myself, Mad rip sh** And slide through your verse like the Tokyo Drift kid From being on the doctor's on pills like please help me To being on the hospital floor like please k** me And I ain't scared of dying except there's nothing to inherit And I owe lots of people money including my parents I'm trying signal right but I have mental interference Cause I got inner-demons that are screaming out my lyrics And I'm new to this new game where kids all talk sh** That's why I'm writing rhymes that even they can't f** with Let me do a show, let me catch somebody chuckle I won't stop until my hands hurt and I got bloody knuckles Then I'll take his girl and turn that boy into a cuckold To tell the truth, I ain't f**ing with them s** hoes [Hook] Now when Madchild walks before Madchild looks I swear to God I should be dead from all the pills I took But I'll be okay (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) And when Madchild talks before Madchild thinks I swear that I am going crazy, I should see a shrink But I'll be okay (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) [Verse 2] Welcome to Jamrock where kids dress like Urkel they and they dance to spank rock Don't they know that Madchild fly like Hanco*k I'm from Vancouver where the guns go bang bro Told you that it's Swollen Members holmes, we can't stop I'm dangerous like Bangkok All these little rappers coming fresh out the sandbox Life a little crazy for me now that I'm bankrupt But misguided angel breaking out of his handcuffs Shane felt pain like acid rain drops So Shane popped pills that'll make your brain rot Quit now I'm back conquering like Genghis Calm on tour f**ing who*es like Bang Bus [Hook] Now when Madchild walks before Madchild looks I swear to God I should be dead from all the pills I took But I'll be okay (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) And when Madchild talks before Madchild thinks I swear that I am going crazy, I should see a shrink But I'll be okay (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) [Verse 3] Now tell me who should take the title Rocking steady since the b-boy summits were in tribal Now it's all about survival (Cause when I'm on da mic I like to speak freely) Okay you won't have a clue on what I'm doin' to a rival Thought I was a shoe-in but I'm blue and sitting idle I was super stupid now recouping loot is vital And I'm just trying to break a broken group of ruined idols Now call me Mr. Suicidal Ruthless for a writer rapper with the human spider I'm the Silver Surfer, stressed so I'm a Night Owl Definite depression so my loft is now a hideout It's bright out, keep the shades down and the doors locked Fort Knox, keep the floor mopped, I'm a warlock Trying to keep a secret while I'm sneaking out the door cause People might be sleeping but I'm freaking out for more d** Aye yo I'm set on repeat rocking undefeated but it's dead up defeat White wifebeater in a white wifebeater but I don't wear tight jeans or bright Nikes either You don't like my style? I don't like yours either Dating Asian girls, they got white boy fever Instead of beaking while I'm tweaking out I'm looking for a beacon And speaking while I'm deeking out the Devil on the weekends