Madison X - This Life lyrics

[Hook] Do I really gotta sell my soul? Even after all of the hell Ive known? I just want to make something out of this life Want to see my name up in lights [Verse 1] I could never rap a verse I didn't mean Growin up I dreamed of magazine covers and ridin in limosines Nowadays, this game just doesnt seem The same sh** strongs what Ill forever be Callin 5 women baby I need someone there for me I just want you to hold me down like Promethazine I just want to feel not alone when I fall asleep You see all the good in me, but I see all the flaws in me I see what I didn't do, I see what I messed Up I look at my brothers pictures, I can't even fess up To the fact I know that Im livin in sin And if he was alive he 'd prolly start flipping his sh** Like Greg You know better you ain't addicted to sh** You just want attention and thats what you get I close my eyes, dream about ya Life ain't easy without ya [Verse 2] I wanna say this clear so everybody knows If you actually listened to my devil mixtape you would know But people saw the cover, and started goin Forest Gump dumb Why would I worship Satan, you dumb f**? I named it Devil cause intoxication is him I was a couple months sober tryna shake up some sh** A couple months later, my grandma died And I used that as an excuse to lose my mind Was engaged to a babe who I made deranged She was sane now she insane on a crazy train And I pray, the only impression I left on her say I just wanted whats best for my bae [Verse 3] Ive always believed in another side But that was questioned when my brother died Some suprise If its ride or die, well Im gon f**in ride Dont nobody tell me what to do but the man in the sky Im the farthest from perfect, every days harder But never say die, it not to late for us I love that, that string of hope Cause I know it works It keeps me whole God gives me my all, you dont even know You do you, to each his own Youre never alone The devils a joke Ill give this game everything but never my soul