Lucy Dacus - Thumbs lyrics

You hung up the phone And I asked you what was wrong Your dad has come to town He'd like to meet I said "You don't have to see him" But for whatever reason you can't tell him no So we meet him at a bar You were holding my hand hard He ordered rum and coke I can't drink either anymore He hadn't seen you since the fifth grade Now you're nineteen and you're five-eight He said "Honey, you sure look great Do you get the checks I send on your birthday?" I would kill him If you let me I would kill him Quick and easy Your nails are digging Into my knee I don't know How you keep smiling I love your eyes And he has them But you have his 'Cause he was first I imagine my thumbs on the irises Pressing in until they burst I clear my throat And say we ought to get home He offers us a ride I reply "No, that's alright" When we leave You feel him watching So we walk a mile in the wrong direction I would kill him If you let me I would kill him Quick and easy Your nails are digging Into my knee I don't know How you keep smiling I don't know How you keep smiling I don't know How you keep smiling I wanna take your face between my hands and say "You two are connected by pure coincidence Bound to him by blood, but baby, it's all relative You've been in his fist ever since you were a kid You don't owe him sh*t even if he said you did You don't owe him sh*t even if he said you did"