Lucky - Black Sheep lyrics

Tell me why why does the grim reap where I sleep when I weep consider me just the black sheep in hot coals my fur burns from hells heat looking for a shepherd to lead my life is on repeat then I preach and tell souls to retweet this is one tough feat defeat the old me why I just listen to my heart sing it's hard to play the part when your phone barely ever rings not ashamed to admit it man it hurts and it stings and you're dealin' with the feelin' and there's all these other things like I say it I mean it I never will fake it just picture us naked who are you to tell me how to live life if money was nothin' and feelings were somethin' then I'd be gettin' somewhere with you people but I'll probably be better off just by myself cause I'm offering love and you're conditional by judging my wealth Now I'm shunned so I'm speechless I'm the black sheep of the family and I'll be damned if I don't tell my secrets Now I'm shunned so I'm speechless I'm the black sheep of the family and since I can feel they just consider me the weakest It must k** you to go into public and hear someone bring up the subject of music and with my name in of it Think nothing of it Clearly I love it I'm helping people with what I do So why would I not Ever want to [?] it I had a fan the other day tell me that I saved his life Walking on the train-tacks, probably had to pay the price He heard the train coming but my song was in his head-phones Telling him he's not alone He messaged me that same night One parent telling me to get rid of my life The other one telling me to live it twice [?] hungry but home of the brave I'm just considered a slave every time I roll that dice I'm so depressed, I feel like there is nothing left I feel like I failed the test My life is a second guess I'm blessed but I double the [?] of the conquest A bottle of [?] So can I have some more? My heart is in the floor My [?] is a [?] And I'm heading for war If you listen my mission is diminishing competition If you can't handle the heat, then get the hell out of the kitchen I'm the newest addition, my position to put the beat in submission This tradition that get me put in this position Will I not, I'm so not The person that you think I am and you can see the truth If you ever even just [?], damn [bridge] I'm shunned, so I'm speechless I'm the black sheep, and I fail me, so then I'll be damned if I don't tell my secrets Now, I'm shunned, so I'm speechless I'm the black sheep, and [?] just consider me the weakest No d**, stone-cold shoulders, and fake hugs Betrayal kisses, I beg for forgiveness Brake-up, make up, then wake up And then I sleep for a thousand years, you can hear it in my voice I tell my story in a thousand tears, hip-hop shows me that it wasn't my choice)