Lucid - Introspection lyrics

[Verse 1: Lucid] I'm jammed up, trynna understand the Pain that I gotta manage for Carter Alexander Its damagin' cause damn it gets so cold when you all alone Ain't nobody wanna talk til you pop, then they all callin yo phone Am i supposed to feel ashamed? Cause i found my value And im wonderin how you Can vouch to a gain that'll doubt you, but i knew in time that it would amount to A spot full of grace in the drops of the ba** Not gettin chased from these cops in my place.. Now im lost in a space that i can't get out of.. Position is doubtful Gotta mouth full of inspiration, but I'm lost in these hits im makin Am i flowin for strength and emotional guidance Or is it for money, clothes and the diamonds, im stressed Its hard to feel blessed.. my sons mothers a mess Shes tweetin that personal sh**, I think i need to get her a journal to vent Cause she hurtin our kid But i take the blame, cause i made mistakes Took our trust and i threw it in garbage cause Lucid been poppin and raisin the stakes So b**hes appeal And i wasn't ready so for that im sorry But why in the f** would i fight for someone who does nothin but harm me She says that im nothin but a drunk and i love to go party Sippin bacardi But really im f**in emotionally wrecked Were causin a war like we entered the army I live in a foggy place Mommas always in my fathers face Cause hes gone and wasted at a slot with change This sh**s gotta change, i grab a few pillys and pop the pain Yeah, uh, and the sh** goes on and on Trying to bond with the mom of my child But I can't keep walking strong Knights of Anger got my life in danger Living off of a mic and a prayer Blinded by the lights and the strangers Fighting for soul's that are trying to refrain us Smoking the pain away No one to save the day I drop and I pop while my flow just fades away Y'all ain't ever gave support You ain't ever walked in the J's I sport You ain't ever took the time to promote these tracks (Unintelligible) So your halfway a** can kiss my a** Hit it while I spit these raps I took the time to get my focus set Stuck to the roots with no regret Tucked in my boots like an older vet To hold my rep while I roll these meds Me and pops at a loss for words I'm always getting caught with her Been tearing up my family f**, it's offending me If I ain't making it Mess with the plan of me I stay where the cameras be This ain't no obvi