[Verse 1] Every day I thank God for lessons I'm learning I know that sh** made me a better person I remember calling up to Him when I was hurting Now looking at my life, I'm pretty sure He heard it I'm scared of heights, but kept climbing Scared of lights, but kept shining See I got lost but found a mic and kept trying And still I try, still I climb, I'm still alive (but just barely) Pour my life into these lines and pray they hear me Now listen clearly I'm still so far from perfect, yeah Hardly home, always working, hope it's worth it, yeah But tell me why this sh**'s so hard Why's it take so much longer to put it back than it did to fall apart? [Hook] And they say "when you gonna fall in love?" Girl, I can't even fall asleep I got so much on my mind And they say "when you gonna fall in love?" Girl, I can't even fall asleep So why you tryna find me? Girl, I'm just lost (x2) [Verse 2] I'm just lost and limelight gets uncomfortably crowded Get judged by a bunch of people that know nothing about us But I'm tryna turn mi casa to a castle But on my own terms, I don't want to if I have to Screaming "daydreams over day jobs" Got plane rides, chasing these stage times Either that or to stay fly Cause on the low, I'm alone Can't find anyone with the same vibes Guess that explains all the FaceTimes And I'm sorry for the confusion I cause Sorry I'm so worried about winning, I choose to be lost I'm sorry that I'd rather work or f** than work on us Cause I'm too busy searching for myself to search for love [Hook] [Refrain x2] Every day I thank God for lessons I'm learning I know that sh** made me a better person I remember calling up to Him when I was hurting Now looking at my life, I'm pretty sure He heard it [Outro] If I want it then I get it, then I got it Made a hundred first year out of college Started out as an Internet secret Now I'm playing on they radio speakers And my crib overlooking these beaches b**h, I'm ballin' Came from the beaches, Jesus All I want's the best things