Loop Holes - How I Feel lyrics

Does it make sense to preach real rap Knowing the majority doesn't appreciate that? I used to seek acceptance, but I'm learning from life lessons That solitude is bliss so cherish every second I'm conscious of my self destructive traits Stuck in a mental loop when the sky turns grey and the sun's hidden away I wonder where it runs to Learn to express yourself, never let emotion run you I do my best to cope and stay alive Keep my chin held high walking through the battlefield outside Dodging land mines and watching bridges burn Aware and concerned for what lies ahead when the page turns How does one distinguish reality from a dream When nothing is what it seems and I'm caught somewhere between Being hopeless and hoping less Hoping just, someone can relate to what I've spoke of yet Sick of the loneliness isn't that hypocritical Realization is pivotal at times seemingly pitiful It's dangerous how bad habits can become rituals I've seen the prettiest have the ugliest principles No man's invincible, that's something I learned young Father around, but never around his own son I'll reopen these scars to show you that it's real Let you know the deal, I'm a human this is how I feel 3:54 in the AM; solitary in my room Instrumentals playing; dutch split, weed consumed Paranoia in full effect under the winters moon This colder weather alters thoughts and changes my mood When I think about the actions of my past And look at how I've grown, all I can do is laugh In retrospective of those who said I wouldn't make it I'm nearly 20(I'm 20 now) and for all I know this world is mine for the taking So what's the next move to make? Many paths in front of my face, wonder which one to take In life I'm seeking knowledge on how to relate But I'm feeling like the chapter in mine has been erased I need to escape, find a way to clear my mental space Clouded judgement is fuel for actions to become mistakes The reality of it all is one is all it takes That's why I play my position and learned to know my place