Lomo - Over the Years lyrics

A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years I was pure, but I've blackened, Over the years They all say I've been slackin', Over the years Through this pain I've been havin', Over the years They all just kept laughin', Over the years But they don't see I have saddened, Over the years A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years Let me tell you what's happened, Over the years From the start of my life I knew I was different I'd be stittin' in cla**, mind driftin' and wishin' I could be like the rest of the kids n fit in I had a very low self esteem that needed fixin' I was shy, would never lie, in my eyes, I despised Kids who didn't try in school, I would just wonder why Cause it didn't make sense to me, I was that guy Who would go for straight A's way before 8th grade When nobody gave a f** about cla** I would stay Up to date with my homework and do it everyday I never got in trouble, except for a couple Detentions cause I was humble, and never rumbled With no one, I was scared to speak against anyone I was content with my 2 friends, we had plenty fun I was content with it all and prayed it would remain The same, plain simple life and nothing would change A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years I was pure, but I've blackened, Over the years They all say I've been slackin', Over the years Through this pain I've been havin', Over the years They all just kept laughin', Over the years But they don't see I have saddened, Over the years A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years Let me tell you what's happened, Over the years Now it's the summer prior to high school and I was wrong Thinking that my easy life in middle school would last long Cause I just went through a whole year, dealing with bullies Letting all of them pull me around, knowing fully That I shouldn't be taking it, and I'd be making it Worse, by elevating it, I was playing it By making myself look dumb, though I was hating it I still made fun of myself, for attention Then going home, pissed off with the apprehension That I'd do more dumb sh** and increase the tension In my mind, with my thoughts, there's no prevention It hurt my self esteem and furthered my ascension So 9th grade starts, and my anxiety is rising Finding no new friends, but the bullying's declining Refining me a little, but still far from shining Cause I was still not standing up for what I believed And I could see I could never be free, or relieved If I always flee when no one agrees with me But these rappers always helped me escape and abate My pain a little cause I could relate to the hate They would state on their tapes, so I decided to make My own rap songs, it would be me and my best friend We would rap until we die, though we were just freshmen We'd be fire, cause our desire couldn't get higher But we wouldn't share it, so it couldn't backfire And inspire bullies to make fun of us 'til we tired So I started rapping non stop, it turned into my life Each night I'd write and freestyle into the mic Then one day, almost through 9th grade, it all changed Cause that night I was to stray away from my old ways And smoke weed for the first time, and it felt great Who would have thought getting caught would make our friendships break? A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years I was pure, but I've blackened, Over the years They all say I've been slackin', Over the years Through this pain I've been havin', Over the years They all just kept laughin', Over the years But they don't see I have saddened, Over the years A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years Let me tell you what's happened, Over the years Starting 10th grade more depressed than I've ever been Cause I lost my only friends thinking I could never win Their parents trust back, if I made 1 lesser sin It would be the same, and I would be forever in The same friend group, and they wouldn't have found better men To chill with, and I wouldn't be lonely and weatherin' Speed ahead, I'm in 11th grade, and the hate Made in my veins runs through my body into my brain Making me not give a single f** about nothin' wantin' Nothin' except to get big with this rap sh**, I'm gunnin' At anyone comin' at me, cause I've been runnin' Away from opposition, but now I'm confrontin' With somethin' up my sleeve, there is no more f**in' Around, I can't take anymore f**ing losses I've got my dream, but everything else, I've lost it And it's shot this hole in my heart, making me rotten So I'm saggin' my pants, always high and rappin' In school I'm slackin', but dealing's got me stackin' Actin' like a captain, my peers wonder what happened To the kid who was always crackin' jokes and laughin' Well, that kid was bullied, left behind with nothing left Except for his head, his pad, and his quest to molest The best beats and impress everyone to show he's blessed And anyone who tests his ability, gets wrecked The old me cared, now I simply just don't give a f** I want to bust a nut in this game, plus erupt And become what I've dreamed of, so there's no time for s*uts Or anyone, cause nothing can stop me from going up A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years I was pure, but I've blackened, Over the years They all say I've been slackin', Over the years Through this pain I've been havin', Over the years They all just kept laughin', Over the years But they don't see I have saddened, Over the years A lot of sh** has happened, Over the years Let me tell you what's happened, Over the years