Loathe (MT) - Christening the Damned lyrics

A lifetime of panic The sharpest edge of pain How fragile are the boundaries between us and the insane? What used to be the obvious Has now become for me the hardest thing in life Keep pushing further For how much longer? Triggers cut like razor blades Sending chills straight to my brain That sick familiar feeling That I came to know so well So you see I've never lived the life of a simple man Your life which isn't drenched in fear Everyday I'm haunted Every f**ing single hour of my life Too mauled to feel your sanctity These blessings are just like christening the damned I must push forward Keep going onward Believe me there are certain things you wouldn't want to know The doors that you open will remain forever I am in Hell It's now almost over For all those f**ing years I spent in misery Please wash away these demons from my mind This is the one last time you owe it all to me Keep pushing further For how much longer?