Lizards Have Personalities - Upon A Scarlet Sunset lyrics

This is not my life It's a sham that has left my body atrophied Will someone untie this noose from my neck? This is not my life It's a nightmare and i've been falling forever But when my face hits the pavement i don't wake up I'm left drowning in a pool of bile and blood This is not my life But of course i'll let this train wreck hit me head on this time around Each full moon brings the same f*cking mood I can't help but be consumed I lost what i had I hate what i loved I loathe what i dream This is not my life And i'm left staring at my own shadows in the candle light Waiting for a change to come that probably never will