the future's all talk, further still i think the future's all thoughts. i have the memory to see our paths cross, now see me get lost. and keep in mind we're floating through an ocean of frequency so when i say "i'm seeing someone new" i mean i'm finally seeing me in the mirror by the back door where we used to sneak out in the summer. but it won't be there for much longer so i'm leaving our goodbyes on the new haven line. i know somewhere, forever, we're meeting for the first time, yup. i realize i don't do these things to feel alive. i do them to forget in the softest sense. k** myself, a spell is just a spell but these spirals give me hell, these spirals. i'm just like you except you're 25 today and tomorrow i'll still be troubled, caught in an infinite struggle if i don't change, but i can. like the lines in the letters of the words in each sentence we're making the meaning we're building connections and the things i write down help me remember now there's no waiting involved because there's no holding on.