Little Brother (John Floreani) - A Distance lyrics

I've been holding my breath For twenty f**ing years And hesitation brought me here It makes it harder to believe That I'll see you again I'm so scared of growing up I still act like I'm fifteen years old Too early to give up And too old to come home I found myself at a distance Empty highways and freezing rain carriages I never thought I'd see myself like this Starving to d**h in this f**ing city apartment Well, I'm twenty-one And so alone Well, this distance gave me an option In the form of a shiny red apple In it's dark red skin I saw my reflection But I couldn't take it I sunk my teeth in I watch your tail lights fade over this stale town Your arm still waving from your window I can barely make it out It'll be a cold and quiet month To spend alone in my head But when you finally return We'll be stronger for this I keep a tiny colored print of you and I The one that we took At our friends engagement Sometimes I catch myself swimming in your smile And the crease over your eyes If I try I remember what they look like I keep a tiny colored print of you and I Folded and creased like a bill In the paper compartment of my wallet A worthy home For something that comes And goes Oh, I now know why I've never felt at home I'm happy and healthy in my head But I've never felt so alone I spend my days counting the lines along the road They disappear right under me Like all the places I've been Just thinking of you